Can I express this feeling?

Can I find the right words?

Can I get all the emotions together and

Make sure what I meant was clearly heard….

Confusion is no excuse

Neither is the frame of events

My mind’s preoccupation, the nonsense, the expectations

Stock them away

I am not ignoring them

At least……… let me so pretend…

I am game to go all in

I hate so much of you

I didn’t wish for this

I don’t know what to do

I don’t what I want.....Who I am

I don’t know………

I need you

The picture is so hazy

I drew the picture so….

My ride was easy

I drove all night, while headlamps were low

I was headed for the countryside

Baggage I didn’t have, had never been attached

………. lest I should abide

But I lost my path, I lost direction, I chose the direction

And now I don’t know where to go….

They say rest too face this situation

They say you learn on your way

You make choices and get to know yourself

And hence you know your way

I don’t get a good feeling

I don’t behave the way I want

I don’t get a good night’s sleep

My mind, my heart, my soul

Can’t resign to each other’s demands

I am fighting a battle

Can I express this feeling?

Confusion being no excuse

I am game to go all in

The picture is so hazy

Don’t care if rest too face this situation

I don’t get a good feeling

I would rather stand my ground, see it through and lose.